Mr. Hyde and Me: How I Live as Two Different Men

“I lived with a man inside me I never knew until the day I looked him in the eye.”For decades Ben Sautter lived as two different men. One built homes, contracted from the U.S. Government, and operated heavy equipment throughout the west. The other man trafficked drugs, committed arson for profit, and served time in federal prison. He felt nothing when he burned down a hotel. No guilt. No fear. No remorse. He went home, ate dinner, watched the news about the fire, and went to bed.The two identities never collided — not until a stroke in 2017 disrupted the mechanism that kept them separate.Mr. Hyde and Me is not a redemption memoir. It’s a firsthand examination of how childhood trauma can fracture identity so completely that a man can commit crimes and still function as someone trusted and respected.Without excuses or self-pity, Ben explores emotional dissociation, psychological defense mechanisms, and what happens when decades of suppression surfaces.This is not a story of transformation.It’s a reckoning. Read more